Le Journal

I've been pretty busy lately. I've worked nearly 50 hours this week, with the superstore day receiver calling in sick three days in a row. I thought it'd be a good idea taking his shift on Friday. Oh god. It was hectic the entire day, an average of three trucks at the door at one time. Alex had to throw out three boxes of cheese that I didn't know where there and therefore didn't bother to put in a cooler. I ended up working 10 hours, which wasn't even enough time to do what I was supposed to do. I literally had nightmares about it.
So yea, been busy, I'm finally getting a day off on Monday. That's one thing I hate about retail, is that the easy non-busy time is when everyone else is at work. While everyone's out enjoying the weekend or the Holidays, you're busy working your ass off because they're not. When everyone else is busy working their asses off, you can relax because that means they have to time to go shopping. Pretty backwards, no wonder it's such an easy job to get.

Another thing that's pissing me off is puberty. You'd think at age 18 (and a half) I'd be over it, but no, I am have horrible acne, my facial hair is dismal at best, and raging hormones cause me to be sexually aroused constantly, no matter what I am doing. That sounds kinda disturbing but it's true.

Oh you.
It makes me sad to see you unhappy with life.
It also makes me sad to see you happy without me.
Maybe one day you'll be cured with from this disease and want to settle down with someone.
maybe it won't even be me.
I gotta say I didn't expect this to happen again.
not again.
but I guess I wanted the impossible
every couple from high school broke up by now, maybe it was inevitable
still I thought we were special
and I thought that I could trust you
I thought that you wouldn't do to me the thing I regret doing to you
only worse
we were still dating two weeks ago
and a week ago
how could you cheat on me and lie to my face about it?
did you even know you were doing it?
does it even matter anymore?
I don't know.
It all makes me very sad to think about.
I still love you, and I still appreciate all the nice things you say.
you're actually being rather nice lately
proposing lovely things
like everything is ok
maybe it is?
still
I want to see you still
even though you see her just as often
it's something I'll have to live with.
you still make me smile when I think of you
you're still very special in my heart
I know you hate to see me sad that's why I'm trying
I'm trying not to be sad
at least around you
I just thought you ought to know.
cuz I still love you
and I'll never stop.
(I'm still in love with you!!)

Well I was gonna wait till I found out if I'm going to school or not before I post this but fuck it.
I'll talk about other stuff then.

Such as: (big headline)
Mrs. Sarah Palin, the (no longer presumptive) vice presidential candidate for the Republican Party!
The Republican party, that should tell you enough. But I shall digress, let's go into some personal positions on the platforms:

-no abortions for rape and incest victims. Only to save the mother's life. Not even to save the grandmother's campaign.
Yea that's right, it's true Gov. Palin's unmarried 17 year old is expecting. If that's not a  reason to celebrate I don't know what is. They really should be proud of it, having a candidate going through some of the struggles average Americans go through. Reminds me of Michael Moore's "Prayer to Afflict the Comfortable" theory, that politicians (Repubs in particular) start to actually care about issues when shit happens to them. Take the Bush admin's slight anti-gay attitude regression when one of Cheney's daughters came out. Of coarse having a baby when your mom is the Governor isn't really that much of a struggle, at least compared to normal cases of teen pregnancy. It will at least make her look hypocritical for her conservative Catholic views.

-Drilling in the Arctic
Being a big supporter of Big Oil, with her husband working for BP, she really wants to drill for oil in the Alaskan Wildlife Reserve. She's real enthusiatic about getting those big drills in the polar bear's national wildlife refuge. What more should I say? It's been a back-and-forth issue in American politics, but then again, so was Vietnam (in retropsect)

-Capital Punishment
'Cause one bad deed surely deserves another. Death to rapists! Death to murderers! To quote Palin, "We have a right to know that someone who rapes and murders a child or kills an innocent person in a drive-by shooting will never be able to do that again." And of coarse we do that by...
gun control? Surely not! Palin is also a long-time NRA member. No, don't take the guns away, just kill the people who..
well...
kill other people!

-Creationism vs. Evolution
Palin supports teachign of both theories, and open debates.
Hey, sounds like a compromise to me, I wasn't there when the universe was created.

-Kron bon?
No! Though she has done it before apparently.

-Sex education
Abstinence only! Gee, having a pregnant daughter isn't even enough to convince her how dumb that is!

-Wildlife
As I said earlier, she really hates polar bears. She actually sued the Interior Department to get them off the endagered species list.
Oh, and she wants to set up a program for killing wolves, in order to make it easier to hunt moose.

Well that was exhausting.


Teh Repulbican party's official stance on environmental action is to enact changes that do not "orce Americans to sacrifice their way of life or trim their hopes and dreams for their children." It's nice to live in a fantsy world where all problems go away easily.
Obama lives in a similar one. He wants to "invest in clean-coal technology, and find ways to safely harness nuclear power."
Sounds like a job for...
umm
Super'bama?
Like honestly, being a black president getting elected, ok I can sdee that happening. But clean coal, and safe nuclear power? Sounds he really does have a dream.

I made a mistake. A big mistake. I never should have bothered. I should have just sat around being miserable and wondering what the fuck was happening. I'm an asshole. I let things take over and move too fast. I'm quick too share naive delusions with people. All I can say is I'm sorry, I fucked up.

nextteen year old Cookie Johnson was awarded the award for scientificology today at the 1924 winter Olyimpics of cannada 2004. The required investigators invested their investigation into further investigation in the matter, but we could find none, so we went home and played NIntendo on our new nintendo Roflcopters. Critics say this was a bold move for the 21 year old drunken rambler who is writing this peice of drunken rambling babbling right now, so he is taken off the air until further notice, god day and good day too all you out there who tried but tdidn't succedd. May your heart shiner on like the little engine that never could but tried anyways.

PS:
In the news today, seven slithering
Sauidis were killed after they suffered
an overdose of crack-cocaine.
According to John Travolta,
 the cocaine was given to them from
U.S. soldiers, who told them it was
“cool.” In Saddam Hussein’s defense,
he killed himself.
 In a press
conference on the matter, George W.
Bush claimed he was sexually
assaulted by three stange looking men
who called themselves the
“Warriors of Love.” No word out
yet on how gay that is.

The sacred mouse lambasts the heavily-pocketed giant negative space of land, with such fortitude as this.


A gorilla. A jungle. A cage. Darkness.

How happy I am to realize that you still love me.
I like you like a cute little kitten, making kitten sounds :P:P:P

David Lynch?

Tied and bound, that's how I like it.

I find myself quite tired in the mornings.

I bought Bob & Doug MacKenzie's record from the Thrift Store for a dollar fifty, you hosers. It's got a nice jacket and everything. Beauty. Don't like it? Take off! ahahah

how your hair inspires and captivates me.

Elect the Dead. and listen to Daniel Johnston everyday.

and now the wintertime rolls around. Comes around with snow on the ground. Unlike last year. The winter comes and the sights and smells that come with it and I think of getting wicked shit for Christmas and everything else that has happened on previous winters. The music I listened to. The people I hung out with. Lucky I am this year, I get to spend it with you.